July doesn’t seem to be a suitable month for leaving a job and moving.
I left the company on July 5th in a hurry. A few days ago, during the HR interview, they were still surprised, thinking that I would stay until the 18th and help me pay the social security and provident fund for this month. But after I handed over the work at hand, I chose to leave on the 5th. The handover of work went relatively smoothly, leaving only regret. Around three or four o’clock in the afternoon, I packed my things and was ready to leave. When I left, the manager kept saying that if there was an opportunity, I could come back to the company. He was very welcoming. Great. On a 39°C day, I rode my electric bike back. I had never realized that there were so many cicadas chirping and the traffic lights were so long at this point on my way home from work.
July is not a suitable month for parting.
I left Hangzhou on July 8th, still in a hurry. Before leaving, I didn’t have time to talk more with my friends, and my heart was filled with reluctance. I only bought the ticket to Wuhan the night before. Even on such an ordinary day, the tickets were almost sold out. Finally, I bought a connecting ticket and got on the train early in the morning on the 8th, leaving this city where I have stayed for more than 4 years. Before leaving, I didn’t pack much, just carried a bag.
I think I will come back.
Perhaps there are always many inevitabilities in one’s life. I had to leave Hangzhou, a place I like, with all the things and people I like, not just out of habit.
After graduation, the pressure from my family has been increasing year by year, constantly reminding me that I should get married and have children. Everyone is like this, so I should be too. I don’t want to accept it, but I have to.
Some people say that everyone is an island. I would rather be an island, so that I can follow my heart. Now, I don’t know how to escape the archipelago.
Although I don’t want to follow the archipelago, my work and life in Hangzhou are also a mess. This forced me to make this choice in a hurry. When I calmed down and sorted out my thoughts, I found that it might be unwillingness. The long two-point-one-line life has numbed me. After a day of work, I return to my rented small single room. Sometimes I write something, sometimes I watch videos, and then it’s a new day after sleeping. I am numb and content in such a life. I often have wild thoughts. At the age of 29, I should have a new life, buy a house, do the decoration I like, preferably with a study, tinker with electronics that interest me, and even make videos.
After leaving Hangzhou, I arrived in Wuhan. Here, it seems that everything I want to do can be achieved, and it probably won’t have much impact on my current quality of life.
In the past few days in Wuhan, I have regretted it. The halo in my heart has disappeared. Maybe I am a contradictory person. I think it has a great impact on my peaceful life in Wuhan. Maybe staying in Hangzhou should be the right choice. The reason is nothing else but unwillingness. I think if I stay in Hangzhou and work hard, what I want can also be achieved. I think leaving Hangzhou was my most ill-considered decision. Indeed, as my manager said, I’m only 28 years old. Why rush?
Recently, before and after my resignation, Weibo has been constantly pushing information about going to work and leaving work. Maybe many people have similar predicaments. Under the hot search topic of Life’s Major Events Are All Completed in the Cracks of Work, I saw the troubles of many people, which was a bit depressing.
Life goes on, and I need to re-examine my choices and find my own direction.
I will continue to update… TO BE CONTINUE…